re-entry...

halooo...i know...it's been a while since i last wrote an entry. ever since my HK holiday, been so tied up with my books. yes, i finished four (4) in barely a month and i actually still have three (3) waiting in line. why the sudden addiction? i guess i really missed reading and i enjoy the elated feeling after a good read. it actually took me a while to open my blogspot account. whatever happened to my impeccable memory!haha or should i say blame it on my books...my mind's been fed with so much stuff but don't worry i made sure, only the good stuff.hehe

so after an almost overdose, i decided to take a breather, put my books down for a while, and rest my hands on this laptop. maybe holidays are supposed to put your mind at rest, lull mode. but i believe otherwise. we should not leave our minds idle. like what Henry Ford once said, "thinking is the hardest work there is, which is probably the reason why very few engage in it." funny but true, right?haha so let me jot down some thoughts i have now. somewhat connected to one of my friends' recent confession about her emotional situation. again...sigh....

i certainly won't brag about successfully surpassing the similar stage i had. one of the realizations i had that served as a therapy for me, from all the inspiring stories i've read and all the videos i've watched from http://www.preacherinbluejeans.com/ (certified addict!), it would probably be eliminating comparison. i guess when you're in deep shit, you tend to compare your situation with others, especially when you've given all your guts out and you've worked your ass off for something and suddenly you'd just see some people taking it without even trying to lift a finger. it's so easy for you to say, "they don't deserve it." but after taking some time to allow some sense to come thru your mind, you'd realize that it's not how the world works. true enough, if you don't deserve something, it doesn't mean it would not be given to you. positive or negative. what seemed to be for you as an effortless acquisition for others, can be the only thing they've been waiting for the longest time. but the main catch is, too bad they got it at your expense. well the damage has been done. so it's your choice if you want to weep for what you've lost and what you don't have or celebrate for you have and what you're blessed with. not a tough decision after all.

indeed, quoting Coelho, "when God wants to drive a person insane, He grants that person's every wish."

well that explains my sporadic insanity!hahaha